I'm feeling really jealous today. I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing, but I feel jealous of more than just the girls that are skinnier than me. I am jealous of those that are happier than me. Sometimes, deep in my soul, when I'm alone, sometimes, I think about what it would be like to not worry about the way I look, just for once. And, I don't think that is honestly too crazy.. is it? I am not sure.
I had a horrible day today. Its not like I did much, but that's just it. I barely did anything. I just layed around in bed all day. I watched two movies, went to the gym, and coached a soccer game. That was it. All 19 hours I was awake and that's all I did. I feel so pathetic right now.
I really don't know what else I want to write, so I think that is it for tonight. I'm just confused, and hurt, and sad. Very sad.
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